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My mom is at the end of her life. She is 94 and suffers from terminal cancer. So far, it has been 9 days since she has been able to eat or drink. She can't move any part of her body anymore. Yesterday was the first time in days she was able to lift her hands a little. She can't talk or make any sounds or swallow. However, she still gives me these very endearing looks for long periods of time. I know she is still in there.


It is sooooo heartbreaking to watch her like this. I never imagined I would see my mom go through something like this. Yet, she continues to hang on day after day. How long can this go on? I love my mom with all of my heart, but I do not want to see her suffer anymore. The mom I knew is gone. She looks like a prisoner in her own body. I can't even imagine what she is going through. I wouldn't want to go through this myself. Last week when she was still able to talk all she kept saying was "help me!" It broke my heart. I try to make her as comfortable as possible, and shower her with love. Has anyone had a similar experience where an elderly loved one has gone for this number of days without food or water?


I'm dying inside. I want my mom to be at peace, but I feel guilty for wanting her to transition.

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First I do hope you have Hospice helping you.
Just know she is not feeling hunger as you or I would. Her body does not need food as nutrition like ours does.
Her "help me" could mean many things. And she may not have even been talking to you or anyone visible in the room. Those words may have been the easiest thing for her brain to put together at the time.
As I have said here many times I realized the tears that I cried for my Husband were selfish ones. The tears were for me. I was the one loosing him. For me to want him to remain would have not been fair to him, there is no way he would have wanted to remain the shell that he was.
Hold mom's hand. Tell her that you will miss her but that you and everyone else will be alright. Thank her for what she taught you.
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Lovemymom22298 Mar 2021
Thank you for the reply! You are correct! Her saying "help me" may very well be from something that only she can see. When she was still talking, she frequently spoke about seeing "the light" and saying "she is going home." Both comments have been extremely comforting. Hospice is involved and have been super amazing to my family. Also, your perspective regarding your husband helps to put things in perspective for me. I needed to hear that. Thank you very much.
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I'm sure you probably know this, but I'm putting it out there just in case-
One major comfort, even when she cannot drink, is to keep the mouth moistened. Keep very soft lip balm (or vaseline) by the bedside and dab it on her frequently.
Gently wipe/exfoliate the old lip balm off her lips before applying new as it tends to glom up in the corners over time.
Also get some of the flavored glycerine mouth swabs and frequently swab all around inside her mouth. A severely dry mouth and cracked lips is added misery and is mostly avoidable.
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Lovemymom22298 Mar 2021
Hi, thank you so much for the information! Yes, we are keeping her lips moisturized and her mouth moistened. Hospice is involved and they have been quite helpful!
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I’m so sorry you are going through this. This was the hardest thing to watch with my mom. She had ALS and her living will stipulated no food and water. She suffered terribly and begged the doctors for water at the end.

She had a DNR, and her heart stopped in her home while I was singing to her. That would have been how she wanted to go. But my brother who had the DNR was nowhere to be found and my siblings told the paramedics to resuscitate her.

my brother did finally show up with her end of life paperwork. So she didn’t die in her home, she died slowly in a hospital with no food or water.

I will never do that to my kids. I will stipulate no resuscitation but not withholding food or water. If I don’t want to eat or drink, that’s one thing, but she was begging. Just awful.
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Grandma1954 Mar 2021
Please look into a POLST rather than a DNR it is much more specific
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Even miniscule amounts of water can prolong things, but if there has been NO fluids for 9 days and no foods, I am shocked that your Mom is still alive. I am hoping you have hospice. They would be the ones to ask about how close you are to the end. I myself have not witnessed anyone ever making it farther than 8 days without fluids and food. With fluids, even small amounts, it is often a month. I honestly am so very sorry.
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Lovemymom22298 Mar 2021
Hello, and thank you for the reply. I am also in shock that she is still with us which is why I posted in this forum to begin with. I do have hospice and they have been very helpful.
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Im going through the same with my 84 y.o. mom and was glad to read your post as you were better able to describe this better than i can. My mom hasnt eat/drank in over a week, cant move, talk...but also gives me these long pitiful looks. It is tearing my heart out. We are alone and i dont know what to do for her. I feel just the same as you do.
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Lovemymom, I am so sorry you are going through this. Your mom is 94 with terminal cancer. I am so sorry. My heart breaks for you. Please call hospice and have them give her morphine. Hug her and tell her you love her. Don’t feel guilty. Hospice will help her. They are wonderful. Hold your moms hand and tell her you love her.
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Lovemymom22298 Mar 2021
Hello. Thank you so very much for your reply! This is the most difficult thing I have ever had to experience. And I agree, hospice is excellent! They have been round the clock support. We all (the family) have been holding my mom's hand and telling we love her constantly. Thank you so much for your suggestions.
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My heart breaks for you and I am so sorry. We had hospice for both my father and brother. Both of them were very comfortable and peaceful. They were medicated with morphine and Ativan. I am very grateful to God they did not seem to suffer and were at peace until the end. They both looked like they were in a deep sleep and passed in four days. Sending my prayers for your dear mom. Wonderful you are all with your mom at this most difficult time.
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I just went through this. For my mom, it was only 3-4 days. It was painful to be around. I was her primary caregiver and would struggle between sitting with her and obsessively cleaning my house - a distraction I guess because it was so hard to witness. But I’m grateful I sat with her and held her hand. She and I didn’t talk much in general so it was just about being close for use. I’m sorry. I wish you and your mother weren’t suffering.
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My dad is on about 7 days without anything. He kind of looks comotos and all I can do is play old movies and hope he hears them. I constantly kiss his head and hold his hand and tell him what he means to me. The weird breathing is so hard to hear. This is the worst experience of my life.
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Dear Lovemymom,
Your question is very important. I’m afraid the actual answer is that a person who is at the end of life can linger for several weeks without food or even water.
Most often, this phase is under 10 days, but it can last much longer, possibly 2 to 3 weeks. The answer I was given by my Moms oncologist was 30 days, but that is unusual.
I presume there is no IV fluid being given. Also, you are offering water but she refuses it?
Please keep in mind that after the initial feeling of thirst is gone, there is no desire for water anymore. However, you can moisten the mouth with ice chips, or a moist cloth.
lit is difficult for us to understand this time. When a baby is born, it immediately begins to suckle and that continues every day of our lives.
But now, all of those systems have slowed and stopped. Food and water no longer provide sustenance. There is no desire for food, and the body cannot process it.
A different nourishment is needed now.
” Man does not live on bread alone but on every word that proceeds out of the mouth of God”. Mathew 4:4
Often, people will pray to God to “ take them”. Then, when the end comes they feel guilty, as if that prayer ended someone’s life.
But the downward spiral of death is a process that happens on its own.
You do just what you are doing. Hold her hand. Sing to her. Speak softly to her.
It will hurt. But the most loving thing you can ever do, is to be there for her at this moment.
I know you want it to be quick, sometimes it is, sometimes not.
But when you see her again, she will love you for what you have done for her.
Your Mother must be a fine person because she brought up a beautiful daughter.
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